| | I was close to closing this xanga and relocating somewhere foreign. Start somewhere new. But then if I did that I'd be doing it as a result of someone else. So i'll stick with it. Its mine, it's my space, it's my forum. And I can write say and think whatever I damn well want. And you know, it's the one place, I don't need to dress up in clean and uncomfortable clothing, or wear heels that kill my feet, and wear tops that I worry expose large lumps of fat on my belly, or worry about the exposure of my disgusting legs and try all manner of garment and fashion to cover it up. Where I gotta spend my precious money on face paints to make me look beautiful. Lest I be judged. The beauty of the blog is rawness, kind of. It's direct from horses mouths... or should that be hors.i...? I'm kidding.
I don't need to worry that it's not good enough, I don't need to worry that my thoughts, my ideas and ramblings aren't good enough because I don't shove this blog in peoples' faces. It's mine! I don't ask people to pay to read it, I don't ever expect people to read it and comment, and I get all shy inside when people I know have read it.
But fuck, you know. Perhaps pride in anything is misplaced because there's always someone out there who knows better, who can trash it, regardless of its sentimentality.
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